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I went to Dr. Sharon a couple days ago. She has me feeling out these papers for like... things. Its like a survey, but a really hard one. It requires thought. Cool though. I guess.
Fuck man... im REALLY tired of pali. Like no joke. Like, seriously. Im tired of these fucking people treating me like shit dude. Fucking sick of it. I hate all those damn people and want them to dissapear. Oh sure, there are about 10 more or less that I would save... but the rest off them can go jump off a fucking cliff. I hate them all want want them to kill over. I really want to pack up and go to Beverly right... Now. No...yeah...NOW. I dunno though, mike said if I go, ill either want to kill myself or kill everyone there... because im a psyco crazy bitch. *shrugs* well... hopefully I wont be charged as an adult.
Pfft.
Oh yeah! a little while ago, Joey and I got into an argument. Thats all I have to say about that.
Now, on to write my friends only entry, yay! now its gets personal!!!
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[13 Apr 2004|09:06pm] |
LOL... i was telling ricanna me and matts conversation today... I thought id post it... it was funny.
So he was going through my purse right...
Matt: are those lime flavored tampons?
Me: tampons are flavored!!!
Matt: do you wear tampons with wings???
Me: there is no such thing as tampons with wings
Matt: yeah there are... i saw em on the commecial
Matt: what are the things with wings?
Me: pads
Matt: why dont you have pads?
Me: because i have tampons...
Matt: whats the difference
Me: tampons you insert
Matt:do tampons feel good?
Me: no
Matt: but fingers do?
Me: fingers and a piece of cotton are two different things
Me: tampons dont vibrate
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[12 Apr 2004|12:20am] |
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I had a good day, but all of a sudden, I got the thinkin' and im in one of those woe is me moods again. thank goodness im going to see dr sharon tomorrow. Know whats strange? have you noticed when we arent happy, its like we're sick or something? Like, when youre sad you have to go see a psyciatrist, so make you "better". You never go see one if youre happy and dont have an obvious mental illness. Like... is it wrong to live with a little grief? Geez. Well, I guess that's it for now.
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| Old quiz, updated. |
[08 Apr 2004|10:58pm] |
:x: name = LaChon Marie
:x: piercings = one 8 gauge and one 12 gauge in each ear.
:x: tattoos = 0
:x: height = 5'6 and a half
:x: shoe size = 7 1/2
:x: hair color = dark brown and golder brown
:x: length = upper back
:x: siblings = half sister
LAST...
:x: movie you rented = Rocky horror picture show, office space, and Party Monster I think
:x: movie you bought = Chicago
:x: song you listened to = A Daler Mehndi song... not sure which one...
:x: song that was stuck in your head = Dont remember...
:x: cd you bought = A Daler Mehndi CD
:x: cd you listened to = Once again...
:x: person you've called = Avi
:x: person that's called you = JUSTIN!!!
:x: tv show you've watched = Jerry Springer
:x: person you were thinking of = Best Friend
DO...
:x: you have a bf or gf = yes
:x: you have a crush on someone = Uhm, yeah
:x: you wish you could live somewhere else = Of course I do, I live in nowheres-ville. I mean, if you dont live around here, chances are you dont even know this area exists.
:x: you think about suicide = dosen't everone?
:x: you believe in online dating = not really
:x: others find you attractive = I guess so...
:x: you want more piercings = Of course... 18th birthday baby
:x: you drink = *gasp* what is this drinking you speak of? I know nothing of the sort
:x: you do drugs = no
:x: you smoke = Uhm... no?
:x: you like cleaning = Sometimes... but when its forced upon me by slave massah mommy... I hate it.
:x: you like roller coasters = Of course... spinning and going through loops until you want to puke... whats not to like?
:x: you write in cursive or print = print.
:x: you carry a donor card = no
FOR OR AGAINST...
:x: long distance relationships = Sure, if it works out great, why not?
:x: using someone = for. but someone using me? against.
:x: suicide = No comment.
:x: killing people = depends on who they are. Oh sure, I feel bad for the families and loved ones... but come on... some people... *shaking my head* Man...
:x: teenage smoking = depends on how much you smoke, and what you smoke. Cigs? against, because cigs make you age faster.
:x: premarital sex = For
:x: driving drunk = against
:x: gay/lesbian relationship= FOR!!!
:x: soap operas = Ive only watched one soap opera... and its really stupid. The story hasnt changed much since i started watching in about 7th grade. And when i need my mom to take me somewhere or something of the sort... she always takes all extra long and uses that line "they wont start on time" because shes trying to see the last bit of young and the restless. against.
FAVORITE...
:x: food = Mexican, sushi and creamy goodness.
:x: song = Let me think... I guess its still Darling Nikki by Foo fighters, caress me down by sublime and i think its called hayo belle belle by daler mehndi... im too lazy to figure out the appropirate title at the moment.
:x: thing to do = listen/ make to music, play soccer
:x: thing to talk about = body modifications
:x: sports = SOCCER
:x: drinks = mango virgin margarita and well... laural knows...
:x: clothes = lacey things and jeans
:x: movies = horror
:x: band/singer = javk off jill, sublime, marilyn manson, daler mehndi, faudel...
:x: holiday = Halloween
:x: new nerdy saying = I don't have one
HAVE YOU...
:x: ever cried over a guy= One too many times.
:x: ever lied to someone =I have a PHD in lying.
:x: ever been in a fist fight = only in the dojo
:x: ever been arrested = no
NUMBER...
:x: of times I have been in love? = Uhm... All my life, ive been confusing love with infactuation, obsession or extreme lust. Ive only been in love maybe once or twice, but I do love.
:x: of times I have had my heart broken? Omg, when HAVEN'T i had my heart broken? Pfft.
:x: of hearts I have broken? = Im a bitch.
:x: of girls I have kissed? = Enough, we can say that much.
:x: of boys I have kissed? = uhm... Eh, dont really want to think about it.
:x: of girls I've slept with? = You dont need to know that.
:x: of boys I've slept with? = Or that.
:x: of drugs taken illegally? = Uhm?
:x: of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends? = All my friends (notice I say friends, not aquantances or people I know) seem like that on the outside... or so far.
:x: of people I consider my enemies? = 9 that I can think of off the top of my head, only 8 of them dont know theyre my enemy
:x: of times my name has appeared in the newspaper? = 0
:x: of scars on my body? = Many... 'cept theyre not that noticeable... only two are noticeable...
:x: of things in my past that I regret? = Just about every day in my past I regret.
FAVORITE...
:x: disney movie = Nightmare before Christmas
:x: scent = Bounce and cotton blossom
:x: word = Dont have one.
:x: nickname = Chones and Zomb-a-chon (lol tracy)
:x: guy name = Sepehr and Sorush
:x: girl name = Aviva and Tziporrah
:x: eye color = Dont have one.
:x: flower = black roses
:x: piercing = Christina, vertical hood, corset, tounge, other unusual piercings...
:x: actress = Drew Barrymore
DO YOU THINK YOU ARE...
:x: pretty = im alright.
:x: funny = not really. Most people laugh at me rather than with me.
:x: hot = nah.
:x: friendly = depends.
:x: amusing = yes. my stupidity, naivety and ignorance is very amusing.
:x: ugly = If I have to repeat myself one more FUCKING time...
:x: loveable = PROLLY not...
:x: pessimistic = sometimes
:x: optimistic = not so much
:x: caring = depends on who you are
:x: sweet = depends on what I want from you
:x: dorky = kind of
:x: Spell your first name back wards x: Nohcal
:x: The story behind your user name x: "You were my mechanical bride, pheno-barbie doll,the manicqueen of depression, with the face of a dead star... They'll never be good to you, bad to you theyll never be anything, anything at all... this isnt me im not mechanical..." - Marilyn Manson
:x: Are you straight? x: As straight as a rainbow.
:x: Where do you live? x: Los Angeles
:x: 4 words that sum you up x: Drop dead you bitch.
DESCRIBE YOUR -
:x: Wallet x: its grey with stuff inside.
:x: Hairbrush x: uhm, i use more than one.
:x: Toothbrush x: it has bristles.
:x: Jewelry worn daily x: 2 belly rings, 2 shoelaces (ears) and a necklace.
:x: Pillow cover x: has flowers
:x: Blanket x: same
:x: Coffee cup x: dont have one
:x: Sunglasses x: I dont like sunglasses
:x: Underwear x: I like 'em granny style... size 10. No. I lied. Thats for me to know and for you not to.
:x: Shoes x: Flip flops or converse.
:x: Handbag x: guess bag.
:x: Favorite top x: i dont have one
:x: CD in stereo right now x: daler mehndi
:x: What you are wearing now x: soccer shorts and a wife beater
:x: Hair x: up.
:x: Make up x: lip gloss of course. that should be a givin. what kind of stupid question is that? pssh.
WHO or WHAT (was/is/are) -
:x: In my mouth x: my tounge.
:x: In my head x: Im sleepy.
:x: Wishing x: I could have gone to CC today.
:x: After this x: listen to music until avi calls.
:x: Talking to x: devin. as always.
:x: Eating x: you
:x: Fetishes x: S&M.
:x: If you could get away with it and murder anyone, who and for what reason? x: the vet who killed my dog and all his helpers, MANY MANY MANY MANY MANY people at my school and one who isnt at my school... no make that two.
:x: Person you wish you could see right now x: I wish I could see richie, even though he isnt a person...
:x: Is next to you x: my baby chiquita
:x: Something you're looking forward to in this up coming month x:let me see... hmm, oh yeah! nothing.
:x: Something that you are deathly afraid of? x: bees, spiders, waking up in a coffin, dark in an unfamiliar place, unfamiliar toilets, Wells (my number one fear), mosquitos, snakes
:x: Do you like candles x: yes
:x: Do you like hot wax x: i guess
:x: Do you like incense x: not really
:x: Do you like the taste of blood x: is there something wrong with the taste of blood?
:x: Do you believe in love x: I believe in a thing called love, just listen to the rhythm of my heart... theres a chance we can make it now, well be rockin till the sun goes down... i believe in a thing called looooove... whooo-oooh-hooo GUITAR!
:x: Do you believe in soul mates x: Until I find him or her, I cant be certian.
:x: Do you believe in love at first sight x: No. I do not. because love at first sight is actually strong physical attraction that is similar to an infactuation.
:x: Do you believe in forgiveness x: It depends. But a rabbi taught me... everyone is entitled to forgiveness. I guess I would agree. Put yourself in the assholes position? wouldnt you feel like crap for having made out these elaborate plans to wrong someone... then have them backfire on you horribly, only leaving youreself friendless AND feeling stupid in the end?
:x: Do you believe in God x: yes
:x: What do you want done with your body when you die x: I would rather not think about that right now thank you.
:x: Who is your worst enemy? x: Just about everyone except for like 5 people.
:x: If you could have any animal for a pet x: a llama, and my chiquita :)
:x: What is the latest you've ever stayed up x: all night
:x: Ever been to Belgium? x: Ive seen belgium in ihop.
:x: Can you eat with chopsticks x: yes
:x: What's your favorite coin? x: dont have one.
:x: What are 5 cities you wouldn't mind relocating to?x: Palisades, Topanga, Santa Monica, Bel-Air, Beverly Hills
:x: What are some of your favorite pig out foods? x: cinnoman sticks from pizza hut and creamy goodness.
:x: whats something that you wish people would understand? x:That they ARE out to get you, and the world really does revolve around me... but I bet you believe the world revolves around you too. Dont deny it.
:x: What's something you wish you could understand better? x: myself as well as other's motives...
:x: Anyone you miss that you haven't seen in a long time? x: danielle dollenger, justin, best friend...
:x: Something you want to make happen for tomorrow? x: I dont know.
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| So I was going through my first journal... |
[08 Apr 2004|10:23pm] |
I was looking at my first journal at ujournal when my username was ereshkigal. I found some funny things, interesting things, and things i just thought I should post on this journal.
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Discover the Benefits of Worshiping & Adoring Your Man's Penis!
-Every blowjob you give, adds one month to your life.
-If you swallow, the protein ingested is equivalent to five
porterhouse steaks, but contains only 150 calories.
-A hand-job a day keeps arthritis away.
-Every ten minutes of dry humping is equivalent to ten minutes
on the treadmill.
-Doing it doggie-style will erase crow's feet and wrinkles.
-Intercourse prevents divorce.
-Regular fucking releases Vitamin F, which increases the number
of brain cells.
-Sex eliminates headaches.
-Obeying the Eleventh Commandment, "Thou shalt make thy man
hard" triples your chances of getting into heaven.
-Inviting an attractive female friend into bed with you and
your lover earns you a diamond choker for your birthday.
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BigBPimp: i just came online real quick to remind u that im sexy
reechx: youre an idiot
I remember that... that was hilarious. He came online, told me that, then left. Bardia...what a funny guy.
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Love without Love
I love you, because in my thousand and one nights of dreams,
I never once dreamed of you.
I looked down paths that traveled from afar,
but it was never you I expected.
Suddenly I've felt you flying through my soul
in quick, lofty flight,
and how beautiful you seem way up there, far
from my always idiot heart!
Love me that way, flying over everything
And, like the bird on its branches, land in my arms,
only to rest,
then fly off again.
Be not like the romantic ones who, in love, set me on fire.
When you climb up my mansion,
enter so lightly, that as you enter
the dog of my heart will not bark.
I remember this poem from mr wests class...
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lilblackitty90: big strong mayan
lilblackitty90: ^_^
lilblackitty90: who can dominate and spank me
lilblackitty90: .....and you
reechx: lol you mean who can dominate and spank ME...and when i get tired...
reechx: MAYBE you.
THAT was funny...Remember that devin? Remember who that was about? *cougharielcough*
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And here, is the update I made one year ago today.
ow do you react when you see someone you love happy and jumping around and full of life and energy one minute, then you get a call not even ten minutes later saying hes dead?
I just cant believe it. I cant believe reech is gone. I loved him so much. I mean, We take him to the vet to get the yeast infection in his ear taken care of, and he ends up dying. Its like, im in a bad dream, and i have to pinch myself to wake up. I hope im dreaming. I wish i was dreaming.My mom took him out of the backyard to take him to the vet, then she took him to me to say hello. I said "hello my boy! how are you? aww isha boy...bye my baby..." then my mom left, and i watched him in the car, exited to be going on a trip. He was jumping all over her arm and smiling, looking out the window. Then, my mom gets back, and we get a call saying hes dead. hes dead. my baby is dead. i know some people think its silly to love a dog so much, but that dog was my best friend and my child. i raised him. I loved him more than anything. He was the one thing to made me straighten up and choose the right path, instead of the wrong path when my mother told me she was going to open the front door and let him run out.
I just cant believe it. Welp, the only things i can say is im glad he didnt suffer, and he was going to die sometime.
At least i know dogs arent afraid to die. They arent afraid to die, and when they die, its only their physical body that dies, and they spirit still walks around the home, and participates in everyday life. Im going to miss him. I just wish i could see him and feel him on my bed at night.
I love you little richard...richard...richie...reech, and as my first pet, as my loving dog and loyal friend, you will remain with me forever.
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[08 Apr 2004|03:53pm] |
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SO let me tell yall about my last couple of days. So I updated about uhhh tuesday night already... So that morning I woke up and my mom says "angel called me this morning, we have to go down there before two to pay the money, then we will pick her up tomorrow". So in a little while, we got dressed then went down to moreno valley. We paid the money and everything... then my mom was like uhhh... I dont feel like going home, so why dont we just get a hotel and sty in moreno valley. So... we pretty much did. We got a hotel room, and stayed in moreno valley. The next day... today, we went and picked up chiquita out of surgery... so guess what... :). My baby is home now. Shes a beautiful chocolate colored chi named chiquita. Shes quiet... ive never heard her make a noise, and she seems to be adjusting pretty well. Im so happy. Muh baby.
And today marks the one year anniversary of richies death. Rest in peace my boy.
Isnt that a coincidence? the day i bring home chiquita is the same day that reech died. *shrugs* dont know whats going on. All I know is, im a happy girl.
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[06 Apr 2004|09:01pm] |
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Today was alright. Went to Dr. Sharon... went well, i guess. Uhm, on my way back, some guy hit me again. Man, what is with guys these days... everyone just loves tappin my ass dont they? I tell ya... *shakin my head*. Bought panties today... mmmm... panties. The world is great after you bought panties. *drools*. Yeah... okay...
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[05 Apr 2004|11:56pm] |
My results from a personality quiz: You are easy-going yet discreet. You make friends effortlessly, yet enjoy your privacy and independence. You like to get away from it all and be alone from time to time to contemplate the meaning of life and enjoy yourself. You need space, so you escape to beautiful hideaways, but you are not a loner. You are at peace with yourself and the world, and you appreciate life and what this world has to offer.
My results from a color and sexuality quiz: Black color preferences point to black sex (not necessarily meaning black partners). These people are the misfits of the sex world and seek out each other in kinship. They tend to prefer perverted sex and are usually masochistic or sadistic in nature. They are moody people and often perform at their peak when under stress or during unhappy times. Police psychiatrists claim that sex offenders prefer the color black. And it is no coincidence that the uniform of mobsters and teenage gangs is black attire.
http://www.gagirl.com/quiz/quiz.html is where i got these quizzes some. some are relly good, but others...not so much.
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| Camel toe Haikus... |
[05 Apr 2004|09:28pm] |
Her sweet cloven crack
drips her Saharan nectar
demanding my wood
Flow of sweet nectar
from the crevice of my ho
the fountain of toe.
Zip the fly tightly
Feel the crease define your lips
Denim tells no lies.
I dream of the hump
my labial oasis
A frontal mirage
Two hills inverted
but always on the right side
up and in and home
What's a camel toe?
A slice of pie on both sides.
Fabric in between
"T"ense, veiled crevice cries,
"O"ut, damn denim intruder,
"E"lsewhere, camels spit
Mid East irony.
Women covered high and low.
Camels? Yes. Toe? No
Twin islands rising
in a sliding Spandex sea.
Land ho, camel toe!
Big-ass country girl
Wide piss-flaps like garage doors
Y'all come on in
The vertical smile
Yawning, musty, drooling cave
Can't grow mushrooms here
Zipper disappears
Metal diet for beaver
Rust harbors tetnus
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[04 Apr 2004|08:50pm] |
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the only thing I really have to say is... pfft. Someones, parents annoy me.
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| Dream analyzing... |
[03 Apr 2004|02:05pm] |
Yay, time for dream analyzation.
Rape: FOr a young woman to dream that she has been the victim of rape, foretells that she will have troubles, which will wound her pride, and her lover will be estranged.
Murder: To see murder committed in your dreams, foretells much sorrow arising from the misdeeds of others. Affair will assume dulness. Violent deaths will come under your notice. If you commit mudrer, it signifies that you are engaging in some dishonorable adventure, which will leave a stigma upon your name.
Red: This is in general a positive colour, representing activitym joym festivity, passion and sexual excitement. But blood lust, anger, vengeance, martyrdom and cruelty are also possible assosciations.
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| Another dream... |
[03 Apr 2004|01:40pm] |
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So yes, had another twisted dream last night, but sadly, it wasnt as long as the other ones. Well it was, but I cant remember it all.
So i remember being in a car with devin, driving in this silver passat. It drove quite nicely may I add. We were heading... somewhere. We had bags in the car... like we were running away from home. So we got to this house, in the middle of nowhere. There were two hispanic guys living there... one seemed to be in his 40's and the other one, in his 20's. The one in his fourties had a red scarf over his head. So devin and I walked inside this house. Magically laural, my mom, and some other people appeared in a blue pick up truck with a white camper (similar to the one I was watching on forensic files last night). So yea, devin and I went into this house with these two guys, and my mom was sitting talking to some other guy on the couch drinking champangne.
So Devin and I were ordered into this room with these two guys, and the older guy started raping me. It was horrible. I was screaming and clawing, but the younger guy was holding me down. Thne he came and said "looks like im the father". With A LOT of glee in his eyes. The two guys left the room, and Devin came over to me, my pretty much lifeless sweaty bleeding body lying on the floor, and put my head in her lap. She stroked my head a few times. Then I got up and walked into the bathroom. In the bathroom was a lamp. Not a short, fat table lamp, but one of those long ones on a pole. I grapped the lamp, found the guy, and hit him in the head. He fell to the ground and I saw a big pool of blood coming from his head. His eyes were open. Yeah, he was dead. really dead.
Devin and I walked into the living room in the house, where there was my mom, despite all my screaming, still sitting on the couch with that man, drinking champange and talking.
That guy who was 20, somehow turned into a boy who was more or less...around 13. He decided to seek his revenge on us, therefore, chased after us with a knife. We were trying to get out the house, but there were no windows, and the only way out was a locked from the outside door. After minutes of running and hiding, we finally got out the front door. we loaded all our bags back in the car. I dont know where laural and the other people were by the way. So devin and i were going back and fourth from the house to the car... loading bags. I was loading a bag inside, when i looked into the house. There was a window on the side of the house that wasnt there before. I saw devin, walking, shaking, with a bloodstained lamp in her hand. I ran into the house to make sure she was okay, then I saw that the boy was dead. Devin had killed him. My mom was still sitting drinking champange and talking. So we all got into the car... everyone, including my mom... and we drove to this place that was like a ymca. There was a pool, and some other stuff. We took showers... the shower floor was filled with blood.
Thats all I remember.
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[02 Apr 2004|06:12pm] |
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Ok well heres how my day was. I was in second period when I get this call from angel saying that my moms credit card didnt go through last night, so she was going to send someone to pick chiquita up. I asked her if I could pay for it right now, and she just said... no. So that was bullshit, and put me in a crappy mood. So I went through nutrition and fourth period very pissed,for that and... other reasons... so decided to call my dad, and tell him I was going home. And I did. Now im at my dads and very bored. Im kinda mad that I dont have anything to do, because I have to be bored until forensic files come on at 8. Oh well, sucks to my ass-mar.
Today at 11:41 officially marked my spring break. But I really dont care because theres not like I have anything to do anyway. I want to go have some fun... do some things... I mean look, last spring break, I went on a cruise. This spring break, im doing absolutely nothing. I want to go somewhere other than the promenade or the movies... Ive been there enough times. So basically, dont want to go there. Laural said we can go to the beach... I like the beach... but don't want to go there either. I need go to and party. Do something with myself... party away these frustratiins...but unfortunately, that moment of bliss will never come.
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| I HATE APRIL FOOLS DAY. |
[01 Apr 2004|09:43pm] |
So like, someone kept calling me a few times in 4th period last week, but whenever i picked it up, they didnt answer. I was like whatever. So today, someone text messaged me... heres the conversation.
Person: Hi lachon love you
LaChon: Uh hi, who is this?
Person: LaChon love you
LaChon: Who are you, how do you have my number, how do you know my name???
Person: it hurts that you dont know who this is
LaChon: Well if you tell me we wont have that problem anymore now will we?
Person: What are you wearing? nothing??? hee hee
LaChon: Who arrrrreee yyyooouuuu?
Person: Look hoe im never telling you so you figure it out!!!
LaChon: If i fucking knew then i wouldnt be asking now would I? I would appriciate it if you would kindly let me know.
Person: Its nachon dont get mad baby...
LaChon: No it isnt because 1) he lives in 818 and 2) nshan knows how to spell his own fucking name
Person: Damn! i didnt know you knew so much about him!! can you say nachon freak??
LaChon: No, but I can say I know someones area code and how to spell their name. ut oh no... you know that info about me so I guess youre a freak by youre own standards... look, im getting annoyed.
Person: LaChon you are really scaring me!!! im going to cry waaaa!!! meanie fo feany
LaChon: Im getting annoyed... i dont have time for these bullshit mind games. I would appriciate if youd just tell me so we can move on.
Person: are you on your period or something? ill tell you tomorrow ok!!
SO by this time, i was pissed off... So i asked shiva to call and find out. He acted like he was calling the wrong number.
LaChon: No, i just dont appriciate mind games. and its never a mals place to diagnose pms. btw, hi ernesto.
YES.... it was ernesto. DAMN YOU ernesto, lol. punk. but i still love you buddy.
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Lets see. uhm, so today i saw sandra and we talked about stuff in 2nd period. Nutrition was alright. Mr lee asked me if I was feeling okay. I said yeah, then he said I wasnt... he said I havent been myself lately. Then he told me if there was anything I needed, he would be happy to help.
Mr Lee is great.
So 4th period was boring. very boring. extremely boring.
Uhm, during lunch, i went to the achedemic decathalon thing. (damn thats sad, i cant even spell achedemic.) And like, i was considering doing it. But they were saying it was a lot of studying... and they give you this packet that you study over summer and you go to school like once a week to talk about the stuff youve been studying... JUST IN ORDER TO TRY OUT. I cant study that much. I dont have the patience. I mean, I dont even study for the classes I have, how could i POSSIBLY study for an extra-carricular activity?
So 6th period was whatever.
While driving home, laural asked me was everything alright. She said ive been acting extra depressed lately. I dont know if I give off some kind of sad vibes or something... because I thought I acted how... I always act.
So I get home and call angel, the lady who is helping me adopt chiquita. I asked her about the forms, then she informed me, OH, i cant do it in friday... but i can take her in tomorrow morning. SO... Im getting chiquita tomorrow. I really hope it all works out, because im like afraid. this seems too good to be true... and when things are too good to be true... they usually are. I hate little to no faith in dog adopting places... but like, this one has been working properly. all I can say is, thank you God.
Uh, so thats it for now i guess.
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Wow, I was looking at my quiz results and i realized... I AM antisocial. I AM a schizotypal, I AM paranoid, I AM dependend and somewhat avoidant... Geez... Don't really know what to say about that.
BTW, clicking on the name of the disorder allows you to learn exactly what it is.
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You are a moon shadow. With the moon as your source
you are a being of great mystery. Constantly
drifting, you descend into darkness to conceal
your brokenness. You have come to believe that
you are the only one you can rely upon for
constancy and safety that you need. But those
who know how to see you find enchanting beauty
in your wistfulness and fragility. It is to
them that you should flee, for their arms are
an open haven where your true light can finally
thrive..(please rate my quiz cuz it took me for
freaking ever to create)
What Kind of Shadow Are You? (with gorgeous pics)
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Your Energy is Grey. Your thoughts are unclear,
muddled, and confusing. Dark thoughts or
depression may be clouding your true colors.
It may be that you have been hurt and rejected,
or maybe you are just manipulative, dark, and
evil.
What color is your energy?
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You are Form 1, Goddess: The Creator.
"And The Goddess planted the acorn of life.
She cried a single tear and shed a single drop
of blood upon the earth where she buried it.
From her blood and tear, the acorn grew into
the world."
Some examples of the Goddess Form are Gaia (Greek),
Jehova (Christian), and Brahma (Indian).
The Goddess is associated with the concept of
creation, the number 1, and the element of
earth.
Her sign is the dawn sun.
As a member of Form 1, you are a charismatic
individual and people are drawn to you.
Although sometimes you may seem emotionally
distant, you are deeply in tune with other
people's feelings and have tremendous empathy.
Sometimes you have a tendency to neglect your
own self. Goddesses are the best friends to
have because they're always willing to help.
Which Mythological Form Are You?
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Joey wanted me to add: he agrees.
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My driving instructor told our class a long time ago that something like...1 out of 3 drivers will get into an accident their first year of driving. I thought he was bullshitting...i was like... pfft no, i wont get into an accident... but holy shit... today i got into my frist accident. I was turning out of the student parking lot and this guy comes up behind me and hits me. I screamed...profanity and got out the car. there was no dent... so i just told him to watch his ass. er, neck kinda hurts though. but I guess as long as the car isnt fucked... i can live.
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